I just want him to come home. . .

[SiMaMa]

My husband has been gone almost three weeks now at his new job, where he is out of state making some extra money, or so we thought. ..

He was supposed to come home this weekend because he is off the whole weekend of the forth and he would have to pay for the hotel anyway.

However, we have a major problem. The other day he drove his car up a curb and jacked everything up. He took it to the shop today to get estimates. . . it's gonna be about 1500 to fix everything.

First off, we don't even have that kind of money. Not even close. All of our money goes to bills, food, and baby supplies.

Secondly, the whole point of this job was to save up money so we wouldn't have these kinds of problems. So we could go back to school and better ourselves and make a better life for our son and future children. It just feels like with this now, all this trip was for nothing. We had to be apart for this long and he had to be away from his son for no f*cking reason.

And thirdly, I feel like I've been lying to my son if he isn't able to get back this week. All week I've been telling him "Daddy's coming home soon." and "This time next week you'll be playing with daddy" Ok, I know that he is young and doesn't understand any of this, but it still makes me feel bad.

I've been crying all day. I just want him home. I've been so depressed since he's been gone and I just want to see him. We've been together for almost 6 years and are very close. This is the longest we've ever been apart. He's not just my husband, he's my best friend. My house is such a wreck right now because I neither have the time nor the will to clean.

I just don't know what to do. I just wanted to vent and this is the only forum I go to, so sorry to put all this out here.

[H.Starr]

I understand how hard it is to be away from your husband, believe me.
But I'm sure you can understand why my opinion is "Its ONLY three weeks!"

I know that when that's the longest you've ever experienced, it feels like a LIFETIME. A long time ago, I thought ONE DAY was too long to go without seeing my husband. But 15 month deployments, 2-6 month trainings, etc, make you realize three weeks is like five minutes.

Just remember, he's going to come back. There's no doubt about it. And you'll both be THAT much happier, and appreciate your time together THAT much more, (and the sex will be THAT much better!) when he does!

[H.Starr]

Also, do whatever you can to pass the time.
Even though you don't feel like cleaning, do it anyway. Take Silas to the park. Go to lunch with a friend.
Anything to distract your mind and keep the clock moving. I know its hard to get off your mopey butt, believe me, but when you don't do anything, time goes slower.
You just have to force yourself to keep going all the time and before you know it one day is over, and then another one, and then a whole week, etc.