super depressed

[carrie_ohara85]

My husband and I had been trying to get pregnant with our second child for over a year and we even had a miscarriage last summer. We were getting used to the idea that it wasn't going to happen so I set my focus on finishing my BA and looking for a job. I graduated last May and haven't been able to find work, and in August we found out we were pregnant. I should be excited because this is something we wanted and were working for, but all I can think about it is how I can't find work, and as soon as I start to show I won't be able to find work. I feel worthless, because I am unable to provide for the child I already have, in spite of doing everything I can to find work, and now I'm having another one. I try to talk to my husband and he tries, but nothing makes me feel better. I'm sure the hormones aren't helping, some days I'm okay, but most of the time I feel like a failure. It affects how I act around my daughter and my husband, and sometimes I wonder if they wouldn't be better off without me. And the knowledge that I'll be unable to get a job for close to a year because of the pregnancy gives me little reason to be optimistic. I'm not considering terminating the pregnancy, or killing myself, I guess I just hate the idea of feeling this way all the time. I just want to sleep, and that's not fair to my husband or my child, which only makes me feel worse about myself. I don't know what to do.

[irishblueyes]

You can work while you stay at home during your pregnancy. If possible, start a small business using your talent or skill to make income, e.g. soap making, baking cookies, making quilts or creating any kind of craft that sells well. The important thing is, you have to move around the house as a form of physical exercise.