I am new to this site along with the "blogging" forum so please excuse me if I am doing this all wrong... Background is pretty short & sweet- My hubby (42) and I (28) decided that he would get a vasectomy reversal in order for me to have children with him seeing as he has 2 kids already from his first marriage (15 y/o daughter & 12 y/o son). We purchased the plane tickets and flew to Oklahoma for the surgery & after 2 months of healing processes we could start trying to have a baby... He had the sperm count checked twice and both times it came up great so now we were just thinking it would be a matter of a few months to have a baby.... Wow, we were wrong... It had been about a year since the reversal & I woke up one morning in a puddle of blood, it turned out I had miscarried after only 5 weeks. Talk about total devastation & turmoil... All I have ever wanted was to have a baby and be happily married (which I already am!). Why does it seem like when I have this burning desire to have a baby all my friends, family members and just about every woman walking down the road is pregnant. It's hard to face the facts someday's and I feel like no matter what steps have been taken- stress relief massages, working out, healthy eating, vitamins, praying 24/7, and lots of sex it's just not working... Is there any advice out there?? Sorry this took so long to get out but as of right now this site is the only place I can truly vent my ttc frustrations.. my friends that are pregnant keep telling me to just stop trying and stop thinking about it, very easy for them since they are the ones carry a child!!