19 and scared

[VictoriaGayle]

I'm 19 with mental health issues, a history of self harm and "suicidal ideations", and I found out about a week ago that I'm pregnant. I'm a wreck write now. My fiancee just left, indefinately, to go to his parents house and "think". I'm confused, I don't know if he is leaving for good. I just wish I had someone to talk to.

[pennyroyal]

speaking of wishing you had someone to talk to, is there anyone in your life that you could open up to, and get some of this off your chest? it seems pretty wrong that your fiance bailed on you especially when he probably knows how much of a wreck you are right now. if the answer is no, and you dont have a friend, or a sister, or anyone else that you can confide in, there are a lot of organizations out there that offer free to low income pregnancy counseling. also, keeping a journal really helps me.. it always has. if your boyfriend isnt going to be there for you, and you dont feel like you have anyone else, i suggest seeking out a higher source, even if it is just a therapist that you used to talk to in high school, or someone that you havent talked to in a while, that you used to be able to confide in. the worst thing to do is sit and do nothing hoping that it will all go away.. what are your thoughts right now, about the pregnancy? do you want to keep the baby? adoption? abortion? just totally confused? either way, you really need to find someone that you can trust, and get all your thoughts out so you can make the best and healthiest decision for yourself and for your baby.

[oliviadenver]

be careful and think wise Sweetheart!!!

[mrsmelchor01]

okay, FIRST, stop! deep breath, and think straight. EVERYTHING changes once you are a mom to be. first question you should decide is are you going to keep him/her? if you are then Next, you need to think wether you are going to continue on with 'his' childish behavior of leaving to 'think'. he knows what he wants, he just wants to be sure of how hes going to say it. and at last, go talk to a professional. there is alot of free help. no one can surely give you the right advice other than a pro.