August-how you doing? Pre-labor?

[myboysmom]

He did great, even though we were in the dr. office for an hour total! :P He just laid there and watched the nurse while she listened to him, then he ate while we were waiting for the dr. She came in and checked his diaper area, looked in his ears and throat, listened to his chest. He was so calm during all of this. He even laid still on the scale. (He weighs 11#5oz now, has gained just over 4#) When it was time for the shots, there were 2 nurses, so they each put a shot in each leg at the same time, then he had one more. He cried while the needle was in his leg, and as soon as they had the bandaids on, he quit. It isn't until they get about 6 months old that they really start crying horrible, in my experience anyway. So all in all, it was a really successful dr. visit. I hope that Lucien's goes just as well, but you've got time to worry about that.
I did talk to the dr. about depression today. I haven't been able to snap out of this mood, where I'm overwhelmed be everything, like there's just too much to handle. I never felt this way with the first 2 boys, so I kept waiting for it to go away. Well, she put me on Lexapro, and told me that she'd like to keep me on it for 6 months, and see how things are. I really hope that I start to feel like me again, b/c I'm tired of this person who is constantly tired, irritable, and cries in the shower all the time. That's just not me! Anyway, I need to go get some stuff done before I pick Will up from school. Talk to you later!

[lou]

glad everything went well with teh appointment. I can empathize with the feeling overwhelmed part, though likely not on the level your at with two young boys and a newborn. my god it just feels like i never get anything done. It takes FOREVER to leave the house anymore as I not only have to get myself ready but Lucien. he needs a bath, get dressed, bottle, changing, get dressed again cause he puked/peed/pooped (or all three or any combination of the three) on his outfit, pack the diaper bag, fight him into the car seat, change my shirt, then finally leave. then when we get to where we're going we have to do it all over again minus the bath of course. When we're just at home even I get nothing done. he's either eating, getting changed, or sleeping in my arms. He refuses to let me put him down. He'll fall asleep and I'll put him in his pack and play and 5 minutes later he's up crying. I pick him up after a couple minutes and he almost immediately falls asleep again. we do this all day. I have to where him in a sling to get anything done. Work has piled up, laundry right beside that, not to mention dishes. all in all it's been a productive day if I've gotten a shower (which he wakes up and cries half way through so I have to hurry) and sterilized his bottles. Thank god I get to make my own hours at work. it's going to be tough getting a routine down to get me ready for work and him for daycare. I've been bringing some work home to work on but I haven't gotten much done. I need to get it done by the end of the week and tomorrow is thursday (actually its technically already thursday). It's a coincidence (I was going to say funny but it really isn't) that you mentioned crying in the shower. I haven't done it often but when I'm particularly exausted and overwhelmed that's where I'm at too. I don't think I'm clinically depressed or anything like that, for the most part I'm in a pretty good mood, I'm just a new mom and this has been the hardest job I've ever had. I don't know how you do this with your two older boys. god that has to be utterly exhausting and mind boggling. I have to go, feeding time again. that reminds me, how long do I have to be up at midnight sterilizing bottles? I hope all goes well for you and things start looking up!

[myboysmom]

Hey, lou, just wondered how you, Lucien, and the rest of your boys were getting along. We're doing okay here; Dane (2yo) is going through another defiance stage and it's OH-so much fun! I wonder about Always AJ, too. . . .

[lou]

Everyone's doing well! Lucien has his shots today, I think it's going to be harder on me than him! we're starting to get a routine down, so that's helping. I'm back at work which sucks. I always thought I'd want to be a working mom but now that I am I'd rather be at home. No one's going to take care of my baby like I will! I'm still breastfeeding mostly but the boy eats so much he still gets 16-20 of formula a day. He's also getting to be so much fun. he smiles all the time, mostly when I'm singing to him which I don't think is a very good sign for me! he's "talking" now too which is so cute! the older boys just love him. They're doing okay but thier mom just pisses me off. She tells them that my dad isn't thier grandpa and stuff like that. In my family we treat them no different than any other grandchild. they are my family and hence my families family. It just makes me so mad that they miss out on things like my dad's BD party becuase thier mom is insecure. the boys really wanted to be there but when she found out that it was for MY family of course she said no. I also wanted the boys for halloween this year and didn't get them. I told my fiance to tell her WE want them and not let her know he has to work that night cause then she wouldn't let us have them. well the boys called and she must have been right there with them. they asked what we were going to do for halloween and my fiancee made the mistake of saying that he had to work but I was going to take them with me and thier aunt and cousin's trick or treating and then we were all going to have a sleep over. well last weekend when the boys were over they were really excited about doing this. I was going to dress up and take the baby to get them from school from their halloween party and my mom, their grandma, was going to go with me. they were really excited about this. well she found out that I and my family wanted to spend time with them so of course now they can't go. I told my fiancee that from now on just say we want them, she doesn't need to know what we do with them. it sucks that they're the ones suffering and missing out because she's an insecure *!%#*. My family is their family. we're not going any where. I'm the mother of their brother. she needs to get used to it. Of course when she wants to go on vacation with her boyfriend it's more than okay for me to have them. when we had been dating for two months she called and asked if my fiancee could keep them while she went to florida for 5 days. well he said he has to work and wouldn't be able to get them to school in the mornings and he had to work one night that week and couldn't keep them him self and she says "Well what about you're girlfriend". of course now it's not okay. when the boys are with us they call my mom grandma, of their own volition we never told them they had to do this (we told them they could call her by her first name or mrs..... or make up a nickname for her), but when we all went to their abseball game and their mom was there the boys avoided my family like the plague. oh and we never heard about another game either. sorry to rant on and on, it just makes me so mad! well I have to go get the baby now, time for shots!!!

[myboysmom]

Your family/nonfamily situation just plain sucks! I'm so sorry that you have to deal with all that, especially right after the baby is born. His pic is so cute btw! Everything is really well here; Nick is smiling up a storm, with lots of cooing and some giggles, too. It makes it so much more fun! And, thankfully, he's a wonderful baby. Dane turns 3 at the end of the month, so I'm hoping that he'll get over his terrible 2's right then. LOL Yeah right!

[lou]

Thanks! I think he's adorable. although at three in the morning his cuteness sort of wains a bit. he'll be kicking and talking and smiling at me but I'm just too tired to appreciate it. Is nick sleeping through the night yet? I can't remember, when was his birthady? I'm just wondering when I can expect Lucien to sleep through and start laughing out loud.
I'm glad he's a good baby for you. it would be so hard to have a super fussy/high maintenance baby with two older boys, as if it's not already hard. Lucien is pretty good too.although he flat out rufuses to sleep in his own bed. although I must admit I'm not very persistent in trying to keep him in there.
I'm watching all three of my neices tonight and keeping them through tomoorrow afternoon/evening. we get the boys tomorrow and they always ask about the girls and want to go see them and play and vise versa. the girls love them and love to play with them. I'm sure their mom will be pissed though when she gets here with the boys and their COUSINS are here to see them. too fing bad is all that I have to say. despite her efforts to do otherwise I'm going to ensure those boys know their family and feel at home here and with my family. IT's going to be hectic here though with the baby adn 5 kids. the boys and my oldest two neices, 5 & 8, are pretty well self maintained. I just have to have plenty to do. the girls want to rake the leaves in the yard and play in them. I'm sure the boys won't have a problem with that. it involves getting dirty. my youngest neice is two though and little handful. she's very good and listens so well, she's just active and will want to keep up with her sisters. I'm expecting a meltdown or two when she can't, so I have a stack of books for her to read to the baby. she absolutely loves him. she gets so worried when he cries and has actually started crying herself.
I hope for your sake dane does get over teh terrible two's. what's the plan for his BD. any themes picked out?