I am wondering if it is possible to have prepost-partum depression? I have a history of depression and am pregnant with my first child due in January. I am really scared of falling into ppd and recently have been really distant and moody around people. I cry all the time and I know most people are going to say "it's just your hormones right now." but I know its not. It feels differently from just me being weepy. It feels like it does when I was getting to a low point with my past depression. I can't concentrate. I don't feel like I can do anything right. I am getting snippy and b*tcy with my friends. This isn't normal hormonal surge.
I don't know what I am going to do after the baby. Part of me is hoping that seeing this person I have been carrying will through me back in the right direction I need and part of me thinks that because of the lack of sleep and stress that I will be under will push me in the opposite direction.
I just don't know. I DON'T KNOW!!
I'm sorry that I don't have the answer for you. I think the best option for you is to talk to a doctor or counselor about this.
I also have depression, and mine came about because of my pregnancy complications. With the extra hormones and added stress about being a new mom it can bring on symptoms. I would talk to your doctor. And you shouldn't feel bad about it, your body is going through massive changes, growing a whole human in there! Things are very different for you mentally too because it's a new and exciting, yet scary experience. I had some postpartum afterwards-probably because of my own situation w/the father, but after a few weeks things got better. Just hang in there and remember you're not the only one. You'll love that baby, even if you have the blues. The fact that you know that something isnt right, even though others tell you differently is a good sign your in tune with yourself. And because you are aware of it, i really dont think that you have to worry about it affecting the baby when he/she is born. (Unlike some women, who may not realize they have the condition, or for some reason dont get help and then end up not being able to care for the baby properly).