Once I have my healthy, beautiful baby in my arms, I’m sure my memories of pregnancy will all be delightful. It’s such an exciting time, filled with celebration and anticipation, of individual and collective evolution (woman to mother, couple to family). Physically, pregnancy’s been fascinating, and far easier than I expected. Sure, I’m tired, and my back hurts… and yeah, I have that varicose vein in my right leg, but I’m almost there, so I don’t care.
I’m gonna state for the record, because in some way this is part of what makes pregnancy so personal, real, and even special, that the experience has also been intermittently terrifying, and pretty reliably nerve-wracking (not to a level I can’t handle, but nervewracking nevertheless). From initial screenings for weird genetic disorders, to bizarre symptoms prompting suggestions of other weird and dangerous maladies, I’ve felt for most of this ride like the end is far from sight, and like I ultimately don’t have a ton of control over its outcome. Of course I’ve taken care of myself and the baby inside me in every way I can. But ultimately, I don’t have a lot of control over this process. Perhaps coming to terms with that is a part of the journey, too.
Imagine my surprise (I wasn’t) when a nurse called last week to let me know I’d tested positive for GBS (Group B streptococcus), which they routinely screen for at 35 weeks.
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