I just joined up on this and read a couple of your posts so far. I have to say that your mind seems sharp as can be. Your talent for writing is incredible. I don't think someone who was "broken" could express themselves the way you do. Give yourself more credit. The emotions are going to happen because it is pregnancy hormones. It is completely normal and common. I personally found great relief with natural remedies, because I prefer to consult with what the Earth provides over pill popping. What I used and use (I am nursing an 18 month old)...Natural Calm Plus Calcium (must have for pelvic and hip pain, as well as restless legs)...Omega Brite (omega-3 for mood, heart and joint health, helped my depression)...ProDHA (support for prenatal & lactation needs) Mama Calm (with Folic Acid, amazing for relieving anxiety). Of course check with your doctor on dosage, but it all is completely natural and even helps development.