A loving Heavenly Father gave you your very own special package of challenges, and he is very well pleased with how you are handling them. He did not expect perfection from you, an easy performance of every step to come your way. He gave you this experience so that you might stretch and learn and grow and share your experience with others - us - who also learn. Lessons for all of us include: empathy, compassion, kindness, humility, patience, endurance... You are doing a wonderful job of holding on to faith and hope. You have not given up on your Savior, family, children.. just be sure to not give up hope in yourself. You will get through this, and oh how much more beautiful a person you will be. We, like jems, only shine more brightly when polished - and that requires pressure. You are loved, by oh so many, and most especially your sweet family. Hold onto that Magoo - he is a keeper. :) Accept hugs from heaven through those who love you most, and you WILL find joy in your journey. With love, another member of the "broken brain" club