It was so nice to hear someone feeling the exact same way as I do. I also have a bachelor's degree in Eng lit and am a sahm whose childless career oriented friends and full time working mom sister constantly but unintentionally remind me that i missed a boat somewhere along the line. However, when i look back i can in no way blame that lack of success on having my babies. I' always been good student, very smart, and told that i could be anything i want to be...but never able to decide what exactly that was. I still suffer with the indecisiveness - it feels like every other week i'm pursuing some new career opportunity but so half-heartedly that it fizzles out as quickly as it appeared. i sometimes think there is seriously something wrong with me. but reading your blog and the comments i was reminded of and realize what my husband always tells me and i've known all along - my job and my passion and the thing i am best at is being a mom right now for as long as that takes. I was twenty one when i met my husband and helped him raise his six year old son into a wonderful young man, and i now have a wonderful 3 year old girl and another on the way and raising and teaching and watching them grow and enjoying them is the best job i could ever ask for. no one likes their job all the time and neither do i but i realize that i'm doing what i love - raising my babies! I also work less than part time as a bartender which is nice b/c i get to be out around adults and make money doing it without sacrificing too much time with my kids. I am occasionally teased by some customers about my wasted college degree, but it is an accomplishment i can be proud of whether i use it or not.