kimmo_11@hotmail.com
08-18-2009, 03:03 PM
I had a miscarriage 6 months ago at 16 weeks. My husband and I were so happy looking forward to having our first child together. I have a year and 7 month old daughter from my ex. We were planning so much about how she could have a little brother or sister to play with since it's always pretty much the 3 of us and sometimes the 4 of us when my mother comes to visit. We don't know many couples with young children.
Out of the nowhere I started getting pains and could hardly stand up, but when I went to the hospital my doc told me I was okay and I needed some bed rest and gave me some pills to ease the contractions. About 2 days I got such bad pains I couldn't eat, I went to the bathroom where my water broke... My husband rushed me to the hospital. I asked to go to the bathroom right when I got in and while in the bathroom the baby just came out. I'll never forget seeing the little angel in a way a mother should never see her child.
The most heartbreaking part of all is the day before I lost my baby I was sitting on the bed with my daughter and she kept hugging my belly. once she would sit up again I'd read a little more and she would come back and hug the belly and didn't let go. After a few weeks I thought back on that I think she saying goodbye to her little brother or sister as if she knew.
To skip past all the pain and depression which doesn't go away... my husband and I have been trying for 2 months now. My back specialist ordered a pregnancy test to make sure he can start therapy for my back... I was so excited to take the test... I said to myself "I have to be pregnant, we've been trying" and to my disappointment it was negative. I have a sinking feeling I might never have another child. I just hope I'm wrong. My heart goes out to everyone who has ever lost a child.
Out of the nowhere I started getting pains and could hardly stand up, but when I went to the hospital my doc told me I was okay and I needed some bed rest and gave me some pills to ease the contractions. About 2 days I got such bad pains I couldn't eat, I went to the bathroom where my water broke... My husband rushed me to the hospital. I asked to go to the bathroom right when I got in and while in the bathroom the baby just came out. I'll never forget seeing the little angel in a way a mother should never see her child.
The most heartbreaking part of all is the day before I lost my baby I was sitting on the bed with my daughter and she kept hugging my belly. once she would sit up again I'd read a little more and she would come back and hug the belly and didn't let go. After a few weeks I thought back on that I think she saying goodbye to her little brother or sister as if she knew.
To skip past all the pain and depression which doesn't go away... my husband and I have been trying for 2 months now. My back specialist ordered a pregnancy test to make sure he can start therapy for my back... I was so excited to take the test... I said to myself "I have to be pregnant, we've been trying" and to my disappointment it was negative. I have a sinking feeling I might never have another child. I just hope I'm wrong. My heart goes out to everyone who has ever lost a child.