Ease my mind please!!

[Mommy2Be!]

I am a first time mom....so excited! I can not wait. However, when I was growing up my parents got divorced and we ended up with our mom, but we got taken away from her by our dad. The BEST thing that ever happend to us. My dad and step mom pretty much raised us. Had a great life and I LOVE my step-mom. Here is my biggest fear. I am not really close to my real mom, she chose the other way of life...well lets just call them people & drugs, over her daughters. So you can say that we have spent numerous times on this strange roller coster as we grew up. I care for my real mom, but am not close to her. It is really sad, but I am not.

I could go on for hours BUT I have this STUPID fear that my son will not be close to me. I know there were OBVIOUS reasons on why I am not close to my mother based on her actions, but just putting my feet in her shoes breaks my heart. I would be so devastated if my son never wanted much to do with me or thought of me as just his BIRTH mom. I keep telling myself that it was HER actions that did this and it was not our fault. I would never to this to my son and he will NEVER be second best. I guess I can finally realise now what my real mom means when she talks about wanting to make up for everything that she has missed in our life. Sorry for the blab, just need reasurance sometimes.

[myboysmom]

First of all, it is so fun to read all your messages! :) You are so excited to become a mom it really brings back all those first time, original experiences. I'm pregnant w/ my 3rd and went in for my ultrasound today. Those are exciting no matter how many times you have it done. I found out that I am going to have boy #3.

Anyway, I was just going to say, living in a small town like I do, you see a lot of families like yours where the parents have made bad decisions, and you feel so sorry for the children. But what you tend to notice is the kids either follow suit or do the opposite and end that bad streak. Just from reading your posts, I would say that you have definitely chosen NOT to be like your mom. Good for you! I think it is much harder to break out of a cycle rather than continue it. You are aware of it and will do the best for your baby, I'm sure! I'm excited to hear when you have him and how everything goes.

[mamaof3]

Your Son is going to love you! When you have that baby, he will think that you are his whole world. You are the one that meets their every need! Nobody will know him better than you do. And he's going to love you for the great mother that you are, because you have already decided to be a great mother and put him first! Congrats!

[KilliansMommy]

The thing that makes children so beautiful and pure is that the only thing they crave is your love. He will loves you right now. He knows your voice. So don't worry. As long as you show it to him, he'll always show it back. Although in the teenage years it might not always seem that way lol.

[MomofBrendy]

Mommy2Be-Congratulations on your pregnancy!!! Enjoy it!!! Do NOT worry about your child not loving you or being close to you. You are going to be his world. He will look at you and he will know you are Mommy. Your Mother made the choice to not be part of your life. She missed out on a lot. Your Mom has probably been your best parenting teacher. She has shown you what NOT to do. All you need to do is just be there for your son. Listen to him, comfort him, and just love him. Good luck to you :)