so sad, had to wean @ 10 months

[lyricallove]

I am so sad and heartbroken with alot of pain. Just wanted to share my life with you bfing mommas.My dd is 10 months old and was exlusively bf, never a bottle or a cup until 3 days ago. When I woke up 4 days ago I felt as if I were paralyzed and i was in extreme pain.(Worse than being in labor for 18 hours) I thought it was my sciatica bothering way more than the norm. I nursed my dd, put her in her walker and walked outside to tell my dh what was goin on. I made it outside. As soon as i started to talk I fainted. He rushed me to the ER. They wanted to give me all kinds of meds, but I wasn't to thrilled about taking anything while nursing her. My dh made me an appt. For the next day for an MRI. Anyways, i fed dd the rest of the day laying in bed. After her night feeding I couldn't take it anymore and took the medicine. In the morning my had to give her a milk cup. She was so upset and heartbroken. So, we are on day 3 and she is ok with the milk cup, but very upset with me. I feel like she doesn't want anything to do with me. Before this happened she would NOT have anything to do with anyone. She would scream and cry if anyone would try to hold her or play with her. This has been the worst thing to go through. i may have to go through surgery for a severly herniated disc. This si definitely not how i wanted to end our bf relationsip. We have come so for. It has been amazing, but definitely not easy. I am pumping and dumping to keep up my supply... I know this is long. Thanks for listening.

[mysky0508]

my first thought is don't put so much pressure on yourself! you nursed her for 10 months. that is great! it sounds like dd is doing well drinking from a cup. is she drinking previously expressed milk or?
i didnt follow the part about how she previously would not have anything to do with anyone else. are you saying that you two bonded and now you are afraid of losing that?
dd would rather have you healthy and able to enjoy her than in severe pain and nursing her i'm sure. your dedication is amazing but again...don't put so much pressure on yourself! take care of yourself and enjoy all moments with dd.

[lyricallove]

Thank you mysky0508 for your reply! It means a great deal to hear your thoughts. I had back surgery on 3/11 and I feel so much better. I am on bed rest for awhile so recovery is a little hard for me. Just not being able to hold her and care for her is emotionaly difficult. I drive my self crazy because I want to do so much. Esp...Easter and her 1st birthday 5/2 coming up. My dd is doing well with the milk cup. I had over 200 oz. Of ebm, but we had 2 hurricanes within 10 days and we couldn't save it. She is taking formula. It so cute when she lays in bed with me, she kisses my nightie where my boobies are and loves them up, making all kinds of cute mmmmes, kisses and giggles. It's so cute. She is doing well with my mom and my hubby taking care of her. She would not want anyone but me before this. I think she understands that mommy hurts. Thanks again for responding, you made me feel alot better.

[angel.ricky]

Is it true that Breast Feeding makes you not have your period? I heard from a lady at work that she was shocked when she found out she was pregnant because she hadn't had a period for the entire time she was breast feeding her 7-month-old son.