lindseypaige18
11-09-2010, 10:59 PM
Hi everyone, a little bit about myself before I start talking. I'm 20 years old and currently a Junior doing very well in a 4 year college, with a job and my own apartment. I have been with my boyfriend (21 next wk.) for over 3 years now, we started going out in high school, but lived 50 minutes away from each other so I moved down to where he lived to go to college together and I have now made my home here, and life's been great so far.
However, lately I have not been feeling "right". About a week and a half ago, I started noticing my boobs seemed like they were growing, which is normal for me around the time I will be getting my period, usually the next week. During the past week, my boobs have not only been growing out of my bra but have become unbearably sore. I can't sleep and have to wear a sports bra when I can. Sometimes in the morning I've felt dizzy, as if I was drunk but didn't drink. I was supposed to get my period on Nov. 5th, and it's the 9th so it's still early in the game but still late. I've had pains in my abdomen area and am constantly hungry. Close to my period, I get a zit on my chin in the same spot everytime, and I did get that zit, but it's gone by now and I'm breaking out like I haven't since like the 8th grade. I have had to pee not exactly frequently but more than usual, and have had heartburn/indigestion, as well as (this is kinda gross) excessive drool, but I read that that's actually a symptom of pregnancy. My boyfriend and I always use condoms, and as far as either of us can remember none had ripped and we had not had unprotected but who knows. I know we had sex during the week I would've been ovulating (I looked it up).
What I am trying to say I guess, is that I have acknowledged all of these symptoms but I just can't bring myself to take the test...I'm too worried of the results. Everything in my life will change, and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. I have money to support myself, but there is no way I could support another person and neither could my boyfriend, he is another issue as well. He is succeeding really well in college and has a great future ahead of him, he also just bought a new car so he doesn't have much extra money. He knows about my situation, but is avoiding anything having to do with it because he doesn't want to think about it, and he's not ready for a baby at all, although he is so amazing with his goddaughter.
I would never give the baby up, because I feel that if I wasn't pregnant now, I definitely would have a baby with my boyfriend at some point in the future. However, I feel like I am going through this alone because I shared a couple concerns with my mom and she told me "I hope you are not even remotely thinking you are pregnant", and my boyfriend is just avoiding everything. Not having a support system is hard, and makes me even more scared to take the PT. I could be worrying for nothing, I may not even be pregnant, but I feel different enough to be nervous about a positive.
Sorry for the ramble, but are there any girls on here that have been in or are currently in a situation like mine? Would love to hear from you. Thanks so much!
However, lately I have not been feeling "right". About a week and a half ago, I started noticing my boobs seemed like they were growing, which is normal for me around the time I will be getting my period, usually the next week. During the past week, my boobs have not only been growing out of my bra but have become unbearably sore. I can't sleep and have to wear a sports bra when I can. Sometimes in the morning I've felt dizzy, as if I was drunk but didn't drink. I was supposed to get my period on Nov. 5th, and it's the 9th so it's still early in the game but still late. I've had pains in my abdomen area and am constantly hungry. Close to my period, I get a zit on my chin in the same spot everytime, and I did get that zit, but it's gone by now and I'm breaking out like I haven't since like the 8th grade. I have had to pee not exactly frequently but more than usual, and have had heartburn/indigestion, as well as (this is kinda gross) excessive drool, but I read that that's actually a symptom of pregnancy. My boyfriend and I always use condoms, and as far as either of us can remember none had ripped and we had not had unprotected but who knows. I know we had sex during the week I would've been ovulating (I looked it up).
What I am trying to say I guess, is that I have acknowledged all of these symptoms but I just can't bring myself to take the test...I'm too worried of the results. Everything in my life will change, and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. I have money to support myself, but there is no way I could support another person and neither could my boyfriend, he is another issue as well. He is succeeding really well in college and has a great future ahead of him, he also just bought a new car so he doesn't have much extra money. He knows about my situation, but is avoiding anything having to do with it because he doesn't want to think about it, and he's not ready for a baby at all, although he is so amazing with his goddaughter.
I would never give the baby up, because I feel that if I wasn't pregnant now, I definitely would have a baby with my boyfriend at some point in the future. However, I feel like I am going through this alone because I shared a couple concerns with my mom and she told me "I hope you are not even remotely thinking you are pregnant", and my boyfriend is just avoiding everything. Not having a support system is hard, and makes me even more scared to take the PT. I could be worrying for nothing, I may not even be pregnant, but I feel different enough to be nervous about a positive.
Sorry for the ramble, but are there any girls on here that have been in or are currently in a situation like mine? Would love to hear from you. Thanks so much!